What made me happy today?

2 weeks for me on Monday... restless and squirrely but don't want to kill anything yet. Night is still young.

Bowels have settled down at least. Nicotine withdrawal wracks hell on your GI tract, apparently.

The thing that really made me want to smoke was writing. I wanted something to help steady my mind to concentrate, but the thought of actually smoking made me feel sick, so I'm resorting to coffee instead.
 
The thing that really made me want to smoke was writing. I wanted something to help steady my mind to concentrate, but the thought of actually smoking made me feel sick, so I'm resorting to coffee instead.
Kind of the same for me. I have the hyper executive functioning end of the ADHD spectrum, which essentially demands a five minute break every 90 minutes or so to stave off mental flameout. So instead of smoking I'm... still figuring that part out.
 
I quit smoking 14 months ago. Had to train myself to remember that addiction to tobacco is forever. Being just in a pause between cigarettes. Be it 90 minutes, or 90 months. There will be next cigarette, just not today yet.

So my current mental device against relapse is laziness. I think of "tea ceremony", when there is lot of preparation steps, going to shop, asking that unpleasant dude at the cashier for particular brand of cigarettes, stocking the lighter, making time and selecting the upwind/downwind place to have a smoke. For more steps, I tend to think of bagged tobacco with wraps rather than normal cigarettes. No instant anything.
 
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