The thing that really made me want to smoke was writing. I wanted something to help steady my mind to concentrate, but the thought of actually smoking made me feel sick, so I'm resorting to coffee instead.
What made me happy today?
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The thing that really made me want to smoke was writing. I wanted something to help steady my mind to concentrate, but the thought of actually smoking made me feel sick, so I'm resorting to coffee instead.
Kind of the same for me. I have the hyper executive functioning end of the ADHD spectrum, which essentially demands a five minute break every 90 minutes or so to stave off mental flameout. So instead of smoking I'm... still figuring that part out.
I quit smoking 14 months ago. Had to train myself to remember that addiction to tobacco is forever. Being just in a pause between cigarettes. Be it 90 minutes, or 90 months. There will be next cigarette, just not today yet.
So my current mental device against relapse is laziness. I think of "tea ceremony", when there is lot of preparation steps, going to shop, asking that unpleasant dude at the cashier for particular brand of cigarettes, stocking the lighter, making time and selecting the upwind/downwind place to have a smoke. For more steps, I tend to think of bagged tobacco with wraps rather than normal cigarettes. No instant anything.
So my current mental device against relapse is laziness. I think of "tea ceremony", when there is lot of preparation steps, going to shop, asking that unpleasant dude at the cashier for particular brand of cigarettes, stocking the lighter, making time and selecting the upwind/downwind place to have a smoke. For more steps, I tend to think of bagged tobacco with wraps rather than normal cigarettes. No instant anything.
Jeez. Sounds awful. Hugs all around to all y'all.
It's currently snowing. There's blue in the sky behind the gray and there's a squirrel climbing my favorite tree. I've been sad most of the last week, and work has been stressful, but today, I'm not letting the sadness hold me.
The other day I asked for some snow to go with the cold, and I got it. Now it's still cold, and it's still snowing. I'm getting ready to move on from this.
More like shocked than happy. Recently I wanted to write about a particular style of Karate into my story and then while looking for sources I discovered a book that I had for 20 years had all the info. Funny thing is I didn't even know that the book was about that style for 20 years until now! 
Talk about daft.
Talk about daft.
Or synchronicityMore like shocked than happy. Recently I wanted to write about a particular style of Karate into my story and then while looking for sources I discovered a book that I had for 20 years had all the info. Funny thing is I didn't even know that the book was about that style for 20 years until now!
Does that birthday symbol by your name mean today is your birthday? If not it's kind of eerie, because we will shortly be heading out to celebrate our twins' 29th birthday(s).
I think Louanne gave you the cake (birthday) emoji because you wanted snow and got it. Maybe the emoji should be renamed from birthday to cake, though? I use it as a sort of celebratory emoji.
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Yeah, I was thinking of it as comfort food (but I didn't associate it with birthdays)
Happy birthday to your kids!
Happy birthday to your twins, GrahamLewis!
I loudly expressed to universe that I want a library janitor job. A day or two later there local posting with the weekend janitor job. I have applied, but who knows. They may not like me or have too many candidates. But I am happy that the universe listened.
Finished drafting a new story today, which always feels good at least for a while (it's in the workshop for those interested).
My nephew is walking now, and he would do a turn about the room and circle back to me, do the universal "uppies" and give me a loving baby slap to the face when he was close enough. We had so many big smiles and giggles. He presses his face to the things he loves and he kept doing it to me as I was getting ready to go home today. And my niece kept calling me back for big snugs (what she calls hugs). It was a wonderful day off.
Had a good weekend + Monday, writing-wise. I wrote a couple of song parodies, made some progress on the next chapter of my current novel WIP, received (and went over some) comments on my current chapter from my critique buddy, was inspired to draft the next stage of my protagonist's character arc (which had stumped me up to now) ...
... and even when I went to bed, the writing bug wouldn't stop (even more so because it was hot and hard to sleep). So I put on the light, dictated the next few rough stages (even scenes?) or the next chapter or two to my phone, turned the light off, and dropped off to sleep.
Been stuck at work all day and operating on 4.5 hours of sleep. Now's for the hard part. *rolls up his sleeves, sticks out his tongue, and gets writin'*
... and even when I went to bed, the writing bug wouldn't stop (even more so because it was hot and hard to sleep). So I put on the light, dictated the next few rough stages (even scenes?) or the next chapter or two to my phone, turned the light off, and dropped off to sleep.
Been stuck at work all day and operating on 4.5 hours of sleep. Now's for the hard part. *rolls up his sleeves, sticks out his tongue, and gets writin'*
